an inspiring stOry...

inspired by the book titled " Rainbow's End " by Irene Hannon, i haven't finished it yet but i was caught in the part of the story telling how important for us to have faith in God... especially in the times that we are been drown by sadness cause of our lives here on earth... conversation between Keith and Jill talking about why Jill have a strong faith to God even after the tragic situation that she was been through ... " how? what happened next? he prompted. " i stopped searching for answers." confused and he stared at her " what do you mean ?" " i stopped asking why"... " that's it?" " Yes! " ... " i dont understand " she leaned forward, earnest and certain " neither did i. and in the end i realize i never would.that's my point. the thing is, Keith,God's ways aren't our ways.His plans surpass all our understanding. seeking a logical explanation for what happened to me... it doesn't make sense to even try. there is no logical, human answer. only God knows why I was given that cross. someday, when He and I are face to face, i might be given the wisdom to understand.but for now, its beyond me. i had to learn to accept without understanding." ... how inspiring it was even this woman been through a painful part of a story in her life where she lost her husband and daughter in the fire... and having the big scar over her half face that made herself isolated to everyone for almost three and half years ... she was a good woman indeed... a good sister, a good mother, a good wife and a good human and came a time where she had this hard times in her life but still get back to the path of having faith to her Creator... all of us have different down falls, have different problems and pain cause by lost of love ones, jobs , friends, power, wealth, and everything around us ... say that in some degree we are far from each others... so true everyone is totally different from others ... so important for us to get our strength to move on to the One that gives us strength and power to keep on moving and continue living on earth. believe that He is always listening and His hands will work for us... just believe and lay all your worries in His guide and you will see He is giving you the answer... we don't always need to understand, sometimes we have to accept what God's plan for us... because He already had a plan and we are just here to follow it... and everything that's happening in our lives are part of it... there are always a reason to everything... just lead the way that our God given us... follow Him and God will be with us forever.

eNough !!!

hard that you felt the blame from all of these crap?!?!? to all the things that are not set and done... why you feel the burden but not feeling mine ... how selfish are you that you can tell me the truth unconsciously but like stabbing me twice... don't say anything more so we can still have what we had... don't do more step cause it 's not worthy anymore... so useless that you have learned my importance... these cannot undo what been done... now that i am loosing my grip on one thing that left for us... maybe left for me for the man that i loved... i am letting go' like i am releasing myself from the thing that i hold on to for such a long time... how many years but don't matter on you for you always thinking about you and you... i am always listen but your heart never listen on mine... i know this is pain and i know how painful this is but hoping to embrace these pain so after this i can still know what is important... i am falling to no where but i am looking forward for my eyes to be open that i finally hit the ground and feel the moment that i finally letting you go out of my hands.

how to Treat a wOman

woman, girl, female, lady, mother, sister and so on ... different names but all have the feminine heart and spirit... no differences at all ... so how you deal with your mother, sister or daughter should be no differences ... because a part of you come from them' a part of a woman understand you no matter what and a part of them share real love and fashion that makes who you are ... there are no other rules just handle them with love and care ... man and a woman have a lot differences from the way they moves, think, act, speak and show their emotions ... many books explain it from the anatomical to psychological, to lots of aspect of life ... illustrate how man and woman differ from one another ... on the way they solve and deal with the situation connecting on how a woman's anatomical body develop from the neurons, brain and even the hormones that we have ... and even scientific explanation try to clearly show the difference... but on same ground a woman understand man from who they are and what a man is ... we always heard the note " yah cause they are man... and a man will always be a man ... see' how these old thinking about men are still in this world even changes happen from time to time but a woman knows that ' and a woman understand and there is no need to explain ... but how come a man can't even understand a woman are not like them... woman love a man with all heart , with all what they have... man keep telling about a woman too much drama ... too emotional ... but you never ask them why a woman loves man too much ... because that's how woman love ... with fashion, devotion and a wide understanding that keeps a man to feel love and care ... just like a man needs love also a woman does ... we all need to be love, care, treasure and handle with warm hand and loving heart and giving yourself to the one because that's how a woman should be treated and there will be no other woman that can love you and care for you from who you are more than they can do for you ... just love them and show how important they are as part of you being a man .

A soldiEr in Me

Like a soldier in the desert, moving his feet even wounded. his body dripping with blood and heart beating together with pain. this is how he feels all along in the desert. hoping to have a companion but no one came along. seeing him walking break my heart cause i know how hard it was for him to walk with body that almost can't move. but as a soldier he was trained to be strong and brave to whatever battle came to his journey. just like ordinary person who is passing through this earth with lots of pain and forlorn. no one can help but you yourself have to fight along and once you pass through that journey and survive you can feel the success of what you had been through... and life continue with all of these again and again as long as you live...and that what life is... given the chance to be a person gives you the added baggage of what life taste like here on earth. happiness, sadness, freedom, power, pain, anger, love, forgiveness and so on. life is wonderful, life is good and life is what He gives to us for us to learn what we should have to learn. and for us to feel His love and help. sometimes you see yourself starring at nowhere and sometimes you see yourself crying at the corner. but it is alright cause He sees you along and He is helping you through it in the way the you can feel love and care. although sometimes no one is around for you and most of the time you are trying to be brave enough to face it alone and not asking help to anyone and even don't want to involve your love ones, but you are not by yourself along that journey if you trust and believe on Him, He carried you when you can't move your feet and when you can't think of what you have to. He embrace you when you are cold and full you with your emptiness and loves you the whole time with no condition and that's how He holds you as His child... life is different , life is difficult, life is a battle and that is life full of things that sometimes you can't explain why it is happening. life gives everything that everyone should be taste ... taste of laughter, taste of success and victory, taste of every feelings and emotion that it has around us... He wants us to see life with Him and follow the path you have here with you holding His hand so you can't be alone. i know everything will be just fine. i know He see me and i know how much God loves me... and remember all the things that i have learn and experience through this part of my journey. be strong be intelligent and be a man geared up with His love... like the soldier in the desert that i know he will recover from all of his wound and again will continue to be a soldier trained through his life with courage and determination to win his battle as what he is in this land.

new chapter of life

we are getting old. admit it or not' we have to do our own way to different path, on our own separate fate and heading on what should we have to be done' nakakalungkot sabihin pero eto na un... aminin man natin sa hindi nararamdaman na natin un... ngaun palang nalulungkot na ako kasi may kanya kanya na tayong buhay... pero just like what you said we are connected ... maybe our tiniest nerve may sariling code to give impulse from axon to dendrites to neuron to brain to heart or whatever path ang dinaanan ng impulse na yan para sabihin na magkakaibigan tayo o higit pa sa tunay na magkakapatid... pero eto na... sabi ko nga magkakapatid tayo iba iba lang ang surname ... eheheh' maybe in our past life magkakapatid tayo at ngaun pinaghiwahiwalay ng tadhana pero luckily nagkatagpo tagpo...

at ngaun we are heading on our own ... ibang chapter na ... walang nakakaalam kung anung buhay ang magiging buhay natin pero sana ung pinagsamahan natin di mawala un memory un tawanan na hanggang madaling araw at di pa nakuntento may next session pa... ung walang humpay na kain na parang fiesta at bday sa daming food... eheheh' sa kung anu anung trip na minsan hirap ding masakyan... ung tantrums na bawat isa... ung lahat ng bagay na napag-usapan, napagkwentuhan at lahat ng bagay na ginawa natin na kung sa iba simple lang pero sa atin sobrang superb kung superb... eheheh ' basta mahal natin ang isa't isa at no doubt un kahit mag lie detector test pa tayo... my tears continuously dropping while i'm writing all of these... kasi dito un nanggaling sa puso ko kahit sabihin nyo na minsan walang sense o kahit sabihin nyong finally nag level up na... pero one thing for sure ung pagmamahal na ibinigay ko nang una sa inyo nung naging magkakalapit tayo is still the same hanggang ngaun... sana dumating un time na may sari sarili na tayong buhay , sariling pamilya , mga anak , mga apo... at sana magkakaibigan pa rin tayo kasi i treasure everyone of you dito sa heart ni atze' i love you guys... lori, miko en yui ... =)