Pain by nobody

a person who is nobody and never be somebody... he claimed that title and he deserved it... he is the king of nobody... luckily that i saw his nobody face once... cause it just a waste of time to meet and see a nobody person around.

No Title but with emotion

looking at my blog and starring in a blank space ... i need to write something just what i thought ... and here I'm typing ... the first thing come up... is what will i write? what will be the title... and until now i don't know what should i write... blank space, blank mind and blank emotion ... maybe numb, maybe used to it and maybe it is something not to feel and think about ... now I'm hearing the raindrops outside ... it sounds so calm and yet the winds that accompany the rain feels so sad ... what should i feel now? do i have to continue feeling so sad and think about it again and again ... I'm one of the few people who become sad because of rain ... don't actually know why ... please rain don't make me sad ... weighing my feelings ... i want more happiness that sadness which everyone loves too ... of course' but why things going so bad when you are trying to be the happy ... i don't need much, i don't feel other, i don't want fight, i don't want pain and i don't want anything more ... all i want is what i love ...

what true love mean?!?

i just have finished reading " dear john" just a couple of hours ago... story quite affects me in some sense, actually i was been blown away by the reality of what love was the writer wants to see and feel on the book. though i know what love is and i believe that everyone of us knows what it is, but in seeing the consequences of what it can bring... somehow its hard to be true... if you choose the right thing that you believe is right no matter how hard it will turns to you, no matter how sadness it will bring to your life, you will still stand from the moment that you declare your decision on choosing what you think is best for you and for someone to the day you are gone...


true love means only happiness to someone you love even though you are not included in his/her life anymore... love means peace, joy and happiness and not pain and hurt ... if your love turns and bring pain and hurt it is not love anymore... you are just continuously bringing yourself to your own forlorn and sooner or later you will not be able to bring yourself out from the darkness that turns to you...


the most part i remembered in the book is when John visit Tim in the hospital for the last time before going back to Germany, this is when Tim confess his love to Savannah and how much he love her more than anyone else... and he believes that John love the same girl in the way that he can and even more... he worried about what will happen to Savannah when he is gone and being alone with Alan... he wants a better life for her and he does not want her to handle the situation that no doubt is coming... he knows how much Savannah loves John and how much happiness it brings to the life of the girl he loves much... he only wanted nothing more than to see Savannah happy with someone like John... through that John realizes what is the best for all of them... and he did the right thing even it hurts him much and it only shows how much love he has for the girl he met way back years ago... he continue love the girl in the way that he believes the best...

See tHings diFferEntly

as a person grows old, he/she must evolve to someone who thinks maturely and sincerely... he/she disinter to the extend that everything lies on the table... nothing to hide and nothing to fear... seeing things differently learned through time and experience... if these situations give you something to learn... grasp it by heart and learn by soul... everything teaches us how to be a person in real... person with knowledge and courage about life... a person that can able to move his feet even wounded and look at sky with head up high... how i wish that everyone learns things that way, about life, career, family, love and so on...continuously we can able to achieve it... with our daily life experiences... soon all of us will have it... because through that sense we can able to enjoy what life brings to us.

WoRds

what word is in your mind right now?!?!? information, thoughts, nature, dreams and so on... i guess you will say words that are not so familiar to others or highly intellectual words that are used by some fields like in medicines, architectural and science... words are everywhere... just around the corner, on the street, on your screen, on your bills and so on... we are move by words even no one say it to you... you do an action on your own... words help us to communicate... communicate to all... to anyone just like I'm doing... i write words and say my thoughts... just like writers, they tell you stories through their books... these are tools that create a conversation and later on a relationship to others... sender conveys words to the recipients and through that emotions, feelings and thoughts are shared by one another... words can break and make... break a heart and make true love and share... my friend told me that before you say words or even write words think it not just twice, thrice make sure that words you will say makes a person goes on even how painful and true it is... its the way how we transfer or deliver words... cause you can't take it back whatever you have said.. right... these are how words become so powerful... make you believe and make you to mistrust... make you to be encourage and dismay .... make you to grow and make you stagnant ... but after all words are created so everyone of us will enjoy the greatness of it's own words.

Taste of failure

In reality no one has ever not encounter the taste of failure .... well everyone does.
Not everyday you have the colors of life... you can be in the dark shade of life... part of part to make it balance and to make it equal to everyone... sort of sweet and bitter taste just like some say...Sad part of life but this is the way for us to strive harder and look for the other side...
Maybe you are at the wrong side of your path that's why life is not favorable at you from the start.
Or simply maybe the time for you to grow as you is it's not yet the right time.It is not you who experience it, glad you have it cause it means that you are capable of what failure can bring... you are able to stand on what this situation can bring to you....you are strong.... =)
Wait for that time and trust Him that He will provide what you desire... And continue to dream and hold on to what you want in life.

appreciation and acceptance

Many of us do appreciate things around us. which is a wonderful action to do.it gives us a chance of being gratitude of what lies on it.well some don't see it, cause maybe they have a cluttered mind or maybe they are too busy of things ahead. they are over occupied of what is not yet happening.Over thinking of the future makes less of happiness but i am not saying its wrong cause thinking of the future is planning about your life but what I'm trying to say is that try to appreciate what the present gives you. Enjoy every moment of it cause you can't turn back your head and do what is already past.Be patient of what you are dreaming about, its already written in your path and no matter what happen it will be done in the right place and time. Keep on dreaming and believing. Live in the present because it shows appreciation of what you have.

Acceptance is like being prepared. Accepting of good and bad things. Its like organizing your heart and mind of what will be on the future. And by that you will be as strong as all those superheroes. Preparing and mind setting are factors that will contribute to your personality to become strong and standing still.

Both give us reality check, appreciation and acceptance. God gave us everything we need. He just want us to learn everything from all of things that are already given.Living in the world of full of appreciation and acceptance makes life so wonderful.

an Escape

i love writing ... I've done so many writings in the past but i continue to share what i love to do ... this is a way of escape from things that happen in reality of me ... this is like an escape cause here i am the one who write ... the one with the power to control over the keypad and mouse ... i can do whatever i want to the letters ... make it bold, simple, italic and even with different colors ... here i can used words that i like to use to make a sentence, to make a phrase or even nonsense ... i can put words together to make you read my thoughts after i finished it ... i don't care whatever you say after reading it ... but for me it's like spreading my wings and express my thoughts as of this moment ... hope you will find this kind of thing such a wonderful escape in life...