A soldiEr in Me

Like a soldier in the desert, moving his feet even wounded. his body dripping with blood and heart beating together with pain. this is how he feels all along in the desert. hoping to have a companion but no one came along. seeing him walking break my heart cause i know how hard it was for him to walk with body that almost can't move. but as a soldier he was trained to be strong and brave to whatever battle came to his journey. just like ordinary person who is passing through this earth with lots of pain and forlorn. no one can help but you yourself have to fight along and once you pass through that journey and survive you can feel the success of what you had been through... and life continue with all of these again and again as long as you live...and that what life is... given the chance to be a person gives you the added baggage of what life taste like here on earth. happiness, sadness, freedom, power, pain, anger, love, forgiveness and so on. life is wonderful, life is good and life is what He gives to us for us to learn what we should have to learn. and for us to feel His love and help. sometimes you see yourself starring at nowhere and sometimes you see yourself crying at the corner. but it is alright cause He sees you along and He is helping you through it in the way the you can feel love and care. although sometimes no one is around for you and most of the time you are trying to be brave enough to face it alone and not asking help to anyone and even don't want to involve your love ones, but you are not by yourself along that journey if you trust and believe on Him, He carried you when you can't move your feet and when you can't think of what you have to. He embrace you when you are cold and full you with your emptiness and loves you the whole time with no condition and that's how He holds you as His child... life is different , life is difficult, life is a battle and that is life full of things that sometimes you can't explain why it is happening. life gives everything that everyone should be taste ... taste of laughter, taste of success and victory, taste of every feelings and emotion that it has around us... He wants us to see life with Him and follow the path you have here with you holding His hand so you can't be alone. i know everything will be just fine. i know He see me and i know how much God loves me... and remember all the things that i have learn and experience through this part of my journey. be strong be intelligent and be a man geared up with His love... like the soldier in the desert that i know he will recover from all of his wound and again will continue to be a soldier trained through his life with courage and determination to win his battle as what he is in this land.

new chapter of life

we are getting old. admit it or not' we have to do our own way to different path, on our own separate fate and heading on what should we have to be done' nakakalungkot sabihin pero eto na un... aminin man natin sa hindi nararamdaman na natin un... ngaun palang nalulungkot na ako kasi may kanya kanya na tayong buhay... pero just like what you said we are connected ... maybe our tiniest nerve may sariling code to give impulse from axon to dendrites to neuron to brain to heart or whatever path ang dinaanan ng impulse na yan para sabihin na magkakaibigan tayo o higit pa sa tunay na magkakapatid... pero eto na... sabi ko nga magkakapatid tayo iba iba lang ang surname ... eheheh' maybe in our past life magkakapatid tayo at ngaun pinaghiwahiwalay ng tadhana pero luckily nagkatagpo tagpo...

at ngaun we are heading on our own ... ibang chapter na ... walang nakakaalam kung anung buhay ang magiging buhay natin pero sana ung pinagsamahan natin di mawala un memory un tawanan na hanggang madaling araw at di pa nakuntento may next session pa... ung walang humpay na kain na parang fiesta at bday sa daming food... eheheh' sa kung anu anung trip na minsan hirap ding masakyan... ung tantrums na bawat isa... ung lahat ng bagay na napag-usapan, napagkwentuhan at lahat ng bagay na ginawa natin na kung sa iba simple lang pero sa atin sobrang superb kung superb... eheheh ' basta mahal natin ang isa't isa at no doubt un kahit mag lie detector test pa tayo... my tears continuously dropping while i'm writing all of these... kasi dito un nanggaling sa puso ko kahit sabihin nyo na minsan walang sense o kahit sabihin nyong finally nag level up na... pero one thing for sure ung pagmamahal na ibinigay ko nang una sa inyo nung naging magkakalapit tayo is still the same hanggang ngaun... sana dumating un time na may sari sarili na tayong buhay , sariling pamilya , mga anak , mga apo... at sana magkakaibigan pa rin tayo kasi i treasure everyone of you dito sa heart ni atze' i love you guys... lori, miko en yui ... =)

afraid of it

i am not brave enough to face what i am heading for ... i am afraid of truth and reality of what i am doing ... do i really heading my life with blinded eyes and numb heart ... or i am just surely ignoring what is true or not ... i am scared of what will i be alone ... i am scared to be left behind ... though i am being left behind ... i am afraid of walking in my path by myself but actually i am doing it for so long ... do i have to ask why or i have the answer clearly laid on my table... maybe i am pretending like a happy person but clearly i am not ... i am not a happy person ... why always depend myself on others ... why i am always setting what they want not what i want ... i know i have to face the present and the present gives me what i have to do and done ... wake up!!! please wake up!!! please make yourself happy ... please set yourself free ... please be happy ...

living for a moment

now is the time that you are passing through and every time that it passed had already gone and become a memory .... so don't waste any of it ... make your life a treasure with overflowing of memories that can last forever and ever.

Fight

what are you fighting for? what am I fighting for? we continuously fight in our every day life ... part of the world we live in... and what is a fight? fight is an action that wants to win and get what it desires... there is a different type of fight... a good fight, a great fight and a bad fight ... a good fight is the one your heart desire... a treasure that can be could because it is what your heart wants. no one tells you what are you going to fight for... it is all depends on you... all of us have been in a fight ... a different fight and a different desire... some wants fame, money, power, love, dignity and etc... all for one thing and that is a fight... seeing people achieve their dreams give us inspiration and a good story that helps us to strive in our own fight ... everyone wants to win ... wants a goal... wants what they really looking for... no matter what you are fighting for ... it is all what you really want to have... it is what your heart tells you to have ... the fight that can make you happy... not only for your own self but also for others... it depends on your own desire ... on your own hard work... on your own work... we all have to fight... and we have to do is fight with all our heart... we all need is to fight... FIGHT!!!