No Title but with emotion

looking at my blog and starring in a blank space ... i need to write something just what i thought ... and here I'm typing ... the first thing come up... is what will i write? what will be the title... and until now i don't know what should i write... blank space, blank mind and blank emotion ... maybe numb, maybe used to it and maybe it is something not to feel and think about ... now I'm hearing the raindrops outside ... it sounds so calm and yet the winds that accompany the rain feels so sad ... what should i feel now? do i have to continue feeling so sad and think about it again and again ... I'm one of the few people who become sad because of rain ... don't actually know why ... please rain don't make me sad ... weighing my feelings ... i want more happiness that sadness which everyone loves too ... of course' but why things going so bad when you are trying to be the happy ... i don't need much, i don't feel other, i don't want fight, i don't want pain and i don't want anything more ... all i want is what i love ...