Life brings me everywhere ... Paris

#WAKE ME UP

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
I tried carrying the weight of the world But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans
Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes Life's a game made for everyone
And love is the prize
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost
Didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know

#wannaseeyouagain - thanksformakingmehappy - evenforashorttime# lettingmeexperiencemyselfandfreedom_ iknowitwillhappenagain  :]

before i just read now i touched...a priceless experience

never know what life can be ...
never know what is your next journey ...
never know where you can be ...
never know when it will be ...

just keep walking ...
looking , hearing , feeling ...
running to where your path maybe...
just keep believing and hoping ....
and continue on your own life journey ...
until life stop giving you chances ....
and time passes you by ...

this is your own life story ' 

happiness

happiness is an adjective that represent joy and free spirit to a person or someone ...
which brings smile and tears to someone's face ... and gives positive outlook in someone's mind ...
happiness makes heart feels so alive ...

many of us searching for happiness ...
looking for things that will make them feel so alive ...

some look back for their memories and find time to reminisce the good times'
and some do many planning for the future ... too much plan ... too much drawing ...
nothing bad about that ... planning ... creating future ... making plot ...
nothing harm from remembering happy things in the past ...
looking for the traces of the past that made your life and created who you are ...

but how can me be totally happy with this life ...
if we do looking in the past and thinking about the future ...

sometimes its better to be quite for a while ... free your mind ... release your soul ...
feel the moment ... live at the present ...enjoy the life of today  ...

today is important ... just like the past and the future ...

today is the gift of life ... create a life in the moment '

and this moment will live you with happy and free spirit
that will bring true meaning of happiness in your life '

create a happy life in this moment for you and  people around you '

live a happy life  =)

The Other way ArOund ...

this is how it feels like ....
miles away from home ....
no room for thinking ....
just leaving in the present ....
no looking back ....
its all about moving forward ....
no space for the memories ....
its all about the new ones ....
its like you are alone ....
even around with too many people ....
you have to occupy yourself ....
with work , work and work ....
so when the day end ....
all you have to do is rest ....
it seems so easy but not ....
need to be brave and strong ....
so all these can be done ....
here it will be this way ....
but it is the other way around ....

I WONT GIVE UP - JASON MRAZ

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts
We got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
I'm still looking up

I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough, he knows
We got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

THIS IS HOW I FEEL ...

Open Mind

here comes a time when you have to accept things around ...
here comes a time when you cannot control what now is existing...
here comes a time when you want to close your eyes but open your heart ...
and here comes a time when every thing is as transparent as a clear clouds in the sky ...


time of new phases and incomparable to what is traditional ...
conventional to everyone and new to this time...
as we face tomorrow new discoveries about things you used to see..
and to someone you used to know for a long time ...


what must learn is acceptance to what others believe and see...
to what they feel , like and love to do ... to what other people prefer to...
to whom other love and wanna love and to whom they feel freedom and happiness...
acceptance is the key to this new game ... 


a open mind so others will have open mind and heart to you too... 

NEW PHASE

I am facing new journey , new life , new world but best in hand or may say best in my heart I have loaded of life memories that i know and feel will give me joy, full spirit and lift my soul every time I move my feet forward in this path that I am going. Can't say i am happy but i know this is the best plan He create for me.I feel sad because I am leaving but temporarily after a few times I'll be back to a place where I belong. 


I will miss everything , I will miss every person I love ...  May He lead me with Lights and bless me with His Spirit. I know I can make it through Him. 


May I have a wonderful journey with lots of meaningful memories ' 

ikaw ang aking mahal ...

Itanong mo sa akin
Kung sino'ng aking mahal
Itanong mo sa akin
Sagot ko'y di magtatagal
Ikaw lang ang aking mahal
Ang pag-ibig mo'y aking kailangan
Pag-ibig na walang hangganan
Ang aking tunay na nararamdaman
Isa lang ang damdamin
Ikaw and aking mahal
Maniwala ka sana
Sa akin ay walang iba
Ikaw lang ang aking mahal
Ang pag-ibig mo'y aking kailangan
Pag-ibig na walang hangganan
Ang aking tunay na nararamdaman
Ang nais ko sana'y inyong malaman
Sa hilaga o sa timog o kanluran
At kahit sa'n pa man
Ang laging isisigaw
Ang nais ko sana'y inyong malaman
Sa hilaga o sa timog o kanluran
At kahit sa'n pa man
Ang laging isisigaw
Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ikaw ang aking mahal...

not a bystander ...

......

..........

.............

feel so bad but how can change that ....

no one holds someone's life ...

for what they  feel and see ...

guess no one can even suggest for anyone ... 

life is difficult ...

poor mind , poor soul ... 

like human as difficult to understand ...

thinking , behavior and stand ...

point of view or the way you view around ...

but one thing for sure ... 

not a bystander to treat like one.

Love is in the air ...

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

from the song " The first cut is the deepest " 

 this song makes me smile and i feel this time ... why not give it a try ^^,

unconstructed ...

don't know what'

        sometimes words that came out from your mouth are not what you want to meant ...not that message that you want to convey and receive ... sometimes you  pretend that you can but inside ... you can't even move a little ...  you tend to be strong and tough as a defense of your own sake ... but you know that you are scared to death even say the word or think of the possible scenario ...  jealous of the pain , hurt , love of others ... but not want to try and be on those scenes ... but still missing and wanting to feel it again ... maybe scared and maybe not ready yet ... like jumping into the water from the highest cliff that you imagine ... drowning yourself into the water ... trying to submerge all the badges that you load from the years of pain ... how can't move by the memories of the past ... that actually should be forgotten ... don't want the present ruin everything that are now heading through ...see no start but see the end ... and skip all the stages ... just know the end ... and making boundaries ... how can it be ... if you let these things to happened as a wall and  a defense from all the fears that you see ...why fear ... why not let things go on their way ... why conclude even you have not experience it yet and if that happen just let it happened ...   no more fantasies , no more to unreal ... have to face the reality and fact ... that life should always moving  ... no one can't be left behind unless you let your life to be left behind ... but to those who left behind they put end to their own growth even they just started growing ... making a period to their own story ...  move is the key word ... and try is an  experience ... so why not move and try ... at least once again you feel life ... live , create and experience '

Turning to next page ...

As we leave the pages turning to the next one,  to know what will happen next and to continue what have been started or to start and make a new one  ... we leave the time and chances of the past but carry things that matters to us ... lessons , knowledge ,skills and experiences ... we leave pain , sadness , frustration , hatred , tears ... not leaving the memories but knowing that all those things happened and being part of what the past have ... we leave the places of  where we stood and walked but still can go back if we wanted so and if it is destined to be stand and walk so ... we leave laughter, happiness , excitement , joy and fun ... but we will create a new level on this present time ... we leave the broken pieces of wounded heart ... but still to make it heal and try a new love ...  I believe that this year is an extraordinary year for everyone ... different stories of success, failure , sadness and happiness ... different chapter of learning and experiences ... different adventure and discoveries about oneself and others ... too many different lives of this year that show who we really are and know are potentials to be what we want to be ... I know God will give us this new year , new life ,new beginning ... with His Hands that will keep us on continuing life that His Gift for everyone ... Have blessed new year and a new hope for all of us ... Happy 2012 !!! 

silence

A place where calmness arise... away from the noises that everyday arrive or may say that no ending and maybe no stop... no one can stop someone to make a sound or noise or even things around you may not stop by making their own noise which is such a routine and a cycle of sounds that makes you restless and tired... sometimes ears are deaf to hear a silent even for a while ...you need quite times to listen to the sounds that must be hear and feel ... away from noises around that disturbing and loud that too much for us to hear... keeping for a silent , thinking for a quite place , time to reflect, time to meditate, a time for self to listen to yourself ...where is that place?  a place of silence.... a place where you find the quite time for yourself... looking for the place is a hard part of finding a silence because maybe there is no a silent place ...by then realize that in your heart... in  your inner self maybe you can find such place .... not easy but need to try... need time for recollecting all your thoughts, plans, goals, aspiration and inspiration ... including the plans that maybe wrong or not meant to ...your mistakes and misfortune... failures and pains...  but need to be heard as a part of you ... by the time all of these got into you now its your time to see where you have to start ? what part of it made you down and high ? what will be the best this time?  all questions in your head must be answered by the silence around... by yourself listening to your own sound ... hear the best answer for your question and make this time happen for your own life ...

reflection

One thing that I had learned from a late night chat with my good friend was to see the beauty of others because that is how you see yourself... always look at the good side , turn the positive mode all the time , so refreshing, so peaceful and so light ... and with that you start with a positive mind and must grasp the good side of life ... enjoy life ... enjoy the goodness of being alive ... be good all the time from there, you'll see yourself as the same as others and feel your heart with love and kindness and feed your spirit with the gift of God which is the privilege of being a human alive even in the world with everything turns up side down ... but still with one that will start to see and show goodness to others and self ... time will come that everyone , all of us will be bonded with precious gift of unconditional love and infinite happiness.

God bless us always and forever...

" ang lumang t.v at remote control "

Sa t'wing maaalala ko ung mga pinapanud ko nung bata ako, natatawa na lang ako hindi dahil sa kabaduyan nila, kundi sa fun at excitement na nakuha ko sa kanila...

Alam na alam ko ang oras nila kung kelan ipapalabas, kung anu ang sequence ng mga cartoons sa umaga at sa hapon. kung gaanu katagal ang commercial sa bawat pakita nila sa t.v.

Nandoon na may fantasy, action , comedy, love story, mga cute animals na may super power, mga heroes na may ibat- ibang kulay , may red, blue, green, pink, yellow at black. May mga pagong din na mala-artist ang name , leonardo, michaelangelo, donatelo, raphael at may master silang matandang daga. May mga cute little bears na may cute funny super power from the image na meron sila sa kanilang tiyan at sa huli nun lagi silang nag-slide sa rainbow na may golden pot na punong puno ng coins. May kambal din saging nun. May street na kung san punong puno ng mga puppets from monster na mahilig sa cookies , mayroon ding kulay red dun na super cute kapag kumakanta, may mgkapatid din n opposite ang ugali at thinking, may kasama din silang batang elepante at sexy na pink pig na diva ang dating at may dracula na walang ginawa kundi magbilang ng magbilang from 1- 100 ...

Marami na ding mga action heroes nun ... mga lumilipad, may mga sasakyan na sobrang bilis, mga tight leather leggings and pants, may mga partners din sila, nandun na rin ang mga female counterpart nila at syempre di papahuli ang mga vilians nun maging sa outfit at powers. Ayun nga lang pare-pareho silang medyo mali sa outfit. siguro trend na un nun pa at sa bagay adapted un up to now ng mga action heroes maging ng mga pinoy super heroes ... eheheh '

Time din namin meron ng anime' may science, mga martial arts na maging sa mga computers nun may mga games na sila , at existing pa din naman hanggang ngaun... may mga princess na galing sa moon at kung san san pang planeta. kaya date akala ko lahat ng tao may super powers na o ung shakra na ewan ko kung saan galing un ... basta mag internalize ka lng , super concentrate,meditate , believe at bravery at wella .... aun na lalabas na ung mga powers mo '

hai di nauubos ang ideas ng mga cartoonist nun may daga , pusa, aso , elepante , bibe , isda at kung anu anu pang mga hayop na naiisip mo ... meron nun sa t.v at sure click un .. kasi may mga series at minsan nagkaka-movie pa...

ang saya ng buhay bata ... buhay na buhay ang mga mata at puso sa kasiyahan na makukuha dahil lang sa mga cartoons at mga characters na walang ginawa kundi magpatawa at magbigay ng kasiyahan sa kanila...

At ngaun ... hindi madali makuha un ... sa dami ng kaylangan gawin , simulan at tapusin... hindi mo alam kung anu p ang gagawin ...

saan na ba un t.v at remote namin nun ' kung pwede lang na makita at mapanuoran lng sila ulit at babalik ako sa una ... bakit hindi ... ngaun iiyak ka dahil sa nasaktan ka ng buhay , date iiyak k lng dahil nilipat ang channel sa balita o basketball ng tatay mo ... at kapag binalik n sa cartoons buhay na ulit ang excitement at enjoyment mo sa katawan ...


Kung pwede lng sana diba ' bkit di diba ?

you made us all laugh ...

from the disastrous and hilarious destiny came a hero that never been expected ...


We love and laugh from the way he said " METROCITY " and SCHOOL to his genius and presentable ways of showing his bad and wicked self ... to everything he did that turns to be unexpected good ... and with his super big blue head ...


we forget our problems that night ... we admire the cartoons today ... before it was just simple puppet hiding the arms of the puppeteer from the big boxes in front and now its 3D ... highly appreciated graphics, designs and concept and computerized ... it is always good or better say it is always best to be like a child ...


I love to be a child in heart ...

" TAKBO " ( Oo, tatakbo ako)

Takbo, meron 2k ( parent-child tandem) more on fun hiking, may 3k , 5k, 10k, 15k at 21k. At feeling ko kpag 21 k ang sinalihan mo panghalimaw na un. At talagang meron nun. Mostly Subic ang venue nun mga ganun mga race. At I am sure na mga Kenyans na ang winners... sila ang 3rd 2nd at 1st place ... sige kuhanin nyo na lahat ng place at basta ako .... tatakbo lng ako '

Sa takbo lahat excited, kabado , kinakabahan , ung iba 1st time , walang practice , ung iba batikang runners na ... dating 1st , 2nd , 3rd placers... ung iba ng warm -up, ng stretching , may bata , matatanda, all ages, babae, lalaki , all preferences, iba seryoso, iba tamang trip, iba naaya lang ng kaibigan kahapon at humabol sa last minute of registration, ung iba sumali for a good cause, for new experience, iba uma-outfit lng , naka-dollshoes, maong pants, short short na maong, sige lang sure masakit un , ung iba naka-singlet with bid ang number sumisigaw sa laki at ung iba for fun lang talaga.

Pero ang lahat ng yan tatakbo. At kapag narinig na ang hudyat at bumilang na ang mga organizer from 10-1 at kapag sinabing Go! Lahat nagkukumahog na mauna. " the intense was there " at ramdam ng lahat un . kahit di ka pa tumatakbo mabilis na ang lub-dub lub-dub ng puso mo, maybe because of the excitement o ung adrenaline mo e nasa high pick ng level sa race walang pakialam ang lahat kung sino ang kasabayan mong tumatakbo. kung ganu kabilis o kabagal ang iba. all you are thinking is yourself, all you care about is yourself, all you care about is yourself , your race, your goal...

Within the race, makikita mo ang iba, not looking through their faces kasi you'll not recognize them unless kilala mo talaga sila . Di kayang iregister ng utak mo kung sinu -sino sila sa sobrang dami ng mga tumatakbo . meron mabilis, mabagal... Sa una lahat full charge , full energy butt after 5-10 mins of full run, makikita mo na ang iba na bumabagal , ung iba humihinto, ung iba naglalakad na lang at ung mas matindi ung iba shumoshort-cut lang . At halos kalahati nalang talaga ang tumatakbo.

Sa race lagi mong iisipin na bawal huminto kasi once na huminto ka bababa ang energy level mo kasabay ung pagbaba ng excitement mo about winning the race.

Sabi nga ng kaibigan ko ... " che , bawal huminto, pwedeng bagalan mo , mg-jog ka pero wag kang hihinto " ayan ung nasa isip ko within the race ... " atze , bawal huminto !!!

Pwedeng bagalan , pwedeng ilakad muna nang konti pero wag kang hihinto, sayang ang oras na ihihinto mo, counted kasi lahat ng oras na itatakbo mo, ihihinga at ihihingal mo at kung ihihinto mo lang habang nasa loob ka ng race .

At kapag huminto ka habang nasa pagtakbo, pwedeng mabuwal, matumbam madapa o higit sa lahat mawala ang gana mo at mawala un main goal mo kung bakit ka tumatakbo.

sa race dapat straight lang ang tingin. Bawal yumuko kasi mararamdaman mo ang dugo sa ulo mo na parang lahat nasa paa mo na at parang lutang, hilo o ampaw ang isip mo . Dapat run with head up high. Dapat makita mo ang sun rays, parang ung sikat ng araw ang inspirasyon mo. Tingin lang sa taas.

Dapat gradual ang pagtakbo , parang slow -moderate- fast at kung hihinto ka naman dapat desentisize naman from fast- moderate -slow. Dahan -dahan ... Reason : Para di ka mahirapan .Para may time ang puso mo sa action na gagawin mo at reciprocal sa kung anong ititibok ng puso mo.At baka kapag di mo isinaalang -alang ang puso mo , baka mahirapan syang mag-adjust .

kailangan mo din ng tubig, hindi para mainum kundi para mabasa mo lang ang lalamunan mo na parang natuyot at nag -evaporate lahat ng water mo sa katawan at ikaw naman dehydrated.

kailangan perfect fit din ang running shoes with perfect fit medyas. para maging comfortable ka at iwas paltos na din ...

sa Race nandun na lahat ng mga hadlang , bakong daan, mabato, madulas , mabuhangin, may aso at minsan crossroad pa. Ung iba naliligaw ng route or track ng race . minsan ung ibang runners nagkakabungguan , nandun na masasagi ka... nandoon na din ang init ng araw, minsan kalaban mo din ung mga asungot at pang -asar lang sa race,na kung iisipin mo nakikinuod lang naman ...
Higit sa lahat ung sarili mo ang pinakamahirap kalaban , eto kasi ang magsasabi kung tatakbo ka pa ba o hindi na ...

Sa race may kakaibang feeling , ung drag ng hangin habang tumatakbo ka. Ung saya sa pakiramdam na kaya mo at magagawa mo... Sarap din sa feeling kapag nauuna ka, sarap kung ikaw mas nagagawa mong mag-stay sa race habang ung iba suko na. Taas ng stamina mo...

Dapat sa race lagi mong iisipin na kaya mo pa, magagawa mo, konti na lang matatapos na , na malapit na ang finish line ... At sa finish line nandun ung mga taong proud sa'yo at sa nagawa mo... Madidinig mo ung sigawan, palakpakan, ung ingay ng pagsasaya at mga kwento ng lahat ng runners na natapos na sa pagtakbo ...

At ikaw naman mala-Movie ang drama .. " slow-mo " Ang ngiti mo na abot gang tenga, ung hakbang mo na biglang umaangat, ung katawan mo gumagaan at ikaw tahimik lang samantalang ung iba madidinig mo ung hingal at sigaw ng bawat runner na kumukuha ng hangin " Ha!!! " at sa finish line dun ka palang sisigaw ng malakas na " YES! " I made it , nagawa ko , natapos ko ...

Ang buhay parang race, sabi nga eh ' " People always rushing around, running around, almost on time and late... that is why it is called Human Race "

Meron 3k , 5k ,10k, so on... minsan smooth, sometimes rough... nanjan ang intense, trials, pagsubok, saya, lungkot , pagtawa at pag-iyak ... Sa buhay maraming tumatakbo, marami ding humihinto, ung iba straight lang , ung iba kadalasan paliko-liko. minsan mainit, minsan malamig ...

Sabi nga diba " kapit lang , hawak lang , tuloy lang ... Ganyan nilikha ang buhay, may paglalakbay, may mga takbuhin na dapat tapusin at pagtagumpayan...

Nanjan naman ang mga taong nagmamahal sa'yo at nanjan lang Siya tinitignan at pinagmamasdan ang bawat hakbang mo habang tumatakbo ... Siya ung nagsasabi sa'yo na kaya mo , magagawa mo dahil nandito lang Ako... Lahat magagawamo dahil Siya ang nagpapalakas sa'yo ...

Ang race di naman madali , gaya ng buhay, mahirap pero masaya. Kasi alam mo na sa huli may Premyo ka sa Kanya ....

gaya ni Pablo, natapos nya ang kaniyang takbuhin at buhat ngaun natataan sa kanya ang putong ng katwiran na ibibigay sa kanya ng tapat na hukom at sa lahat ng mga taong magtatagumpay sa bawat karera ng buhay ....

ang mahalaga dapat matapos mo ang takbuhin na ibinibigay sa'yo... Dapat maabot mo ang finish line ... at makuha mo ang goal mo ...


at para sa huli masabi mo sa sarili mo at sa ibang tao " NATAPOS KO , NAGAWA KO ... "

a wound

This afternoon I got a wound from the broken glass of a picture frame at my friend's house .At first I got no reaction but after a few second I feel pain , seeing blood from the small cut of the glass and I realize I got wounded. I hurried to wash it with soap and let the blood drift because I don't want it to get infected knowing that maybe any organism can penetrate on the open skin and turn to something too serious.

I don't like pain , well no one does ... pain makes a person weak and vulnerable in anything worse than pain ... Pain makes you realize that you are still alive ... Pain is significant even it brings hurt feelings but still this pain tells you that you have to be careful not only to your physical being but also within yourself. A person in you say everything about how he feels inside and how painful the pain that he has to endure. The person in you hurt more than what you see and feel. Because your inside self handle everything you are facing from front and absorb it inside and reflects it from your head to toe.

Pain hurts but it helps ... Endure all pain that we are facing and heading through because from them you will start to learn and love more about life ...

You cannot avoid pain but you can choose to overcome it ... Paulo Coelho

Be stronger as always as before...

now I know

sometimes life gives you are harder hit. For you to know what life means. sometimes man clouded by many things that not really meant to be think or mind.

now where do I need to start?

do pain can help me to know where my path is.

Smile can't hide what hurts me inside.

i need to help myself to fight it cause noone can do that for me just me and my person in me ...

hope someday or maybe tomorrow I have what I need to be a person that I am before ...