unconstructed ...

don't know what'

        sometimes words that came out from your mouth are not what you want to meant ...not that message that you want to convey and receive ... sometimes you  pretend that you can but inside ... you can't even move a little ...  you tend to be strong and tough as a defense of your own sake ... but you know that you are scared to death even say the word or think of the possible scenario ...  jealous of the pain , hurt , love of others ... but not want to try and be on those scenes ... but still missing and wanting to feel it again ... maybe scared and maybe not ready yet ... like jumping into the water from the highest cliff that you imagine ... drowning yourself into the water ... trying to submerge all the badges that you load from the years of pain ... how can't move by the memories of the past ... that actually should be forgotten ... don't want the present ruin everything that are now heading through ...see no start but see the end ... and skip all the stages ... just know the end ... and making boundaries ... how can it be ... if you let these things to happened as a wall and  a defense from all the fears that you see ...why fear ... why not let things go on their way ... why conclude even you have not experience it yet and if that happen just let it happened ...   no more fantasies , no more to unreal ... have to face the reality and fact ... that life should always moving  ... no one can't be left behind unless you let your life to be left behind ... but to those who left behind they put end to their own growth even they just started growing ... making a period to their own story ...  move is the key word ... and try is an  experience ... so why not move and try ... at least once again you feel life ... live , create and experience '

Turning to next page ...

As we leave the pages turning to the next one,  to know what will happen next and to continue what have been started or to start and make a new one  ... we leave the time and chances of the past but carry things that matters to us ... lessons , knowledge ,skills and experiences ... we leave pain , sadness , frustration , hatred , tears ... not leaving the memories but knowing that all those things happened and being part of what the past have ... we leave the places of  where we stood and walked but still can go back if we wanted so and if it is destined to be stand and walk so ... we leave laughter, happiness , excitement , joy and fun ... but we will create a new level on this present time ... we leave the broken pieces of wounded heart ... but still to make it heal and try a new love ...  I believe that this year is an extraordinary year for everyone ... different stories of success, failure , sadness and happiness ... different chapter of learning and experiences ... different adventure and discoveries about oneself and others ... too many different lives of this year that show who we really are and know are potentials to be what we want to be ... I know God will give us this new year , new life ,new beginning ... with His Hands that will keep us on continuing life that His Gift for everyone ... Have blessed new year and a new hope for all of us ... Happy 2012 !!! 

silence

A place where calmness arise... away from the noises that everyday arrive or may say that no ending and maybe no stop... no one can stop someone to make a sound or noise or even things around you may not stop by making their own noise which is such a routine and a cycle of sounds that makes you restless and tired... sometimes ears are deaf to hear a silent even for a while ...you need quite times to listen to the sounds that must be hear and feel ... away from noises around that disturbing and loud that too much for us to hear... keeping for a silent , thinking for a quite place , time to reflect, time to meditate, a time for self to listen to yourself ...where is that place?  a place of silence.... a place where you find the quite time for yourself... looking for the place is a hard part of finding a silence because maybe there is no a silent place ...by then realize that in your heart... in  your inner self maybe you can find such place .... not easy but need to try... need time for recollecting all your thoughts, plans, goals, aspiration and inspiration ... including the plans that maybe wrong or not meant to ...your mistakes and misfortune... failures and pains...  but need to be heard as a part of you ... by the time all of these got into you now its your time to see where you have to start ? what part of it made you down and high ? what will be the best this time?  all questions in your head must be answered by the silence around... by yourself listening to your own sound ... hear the best answer for your question and make this time happen for your own life ...

reflection

One thing that I had learned from a late night chat with my good friend was to see the beauty of others because that is how you see yourself... always look at the good side , turn the positive mode all the time , so refreshing, so peaceful and so light ... and with that you start with a positive mind and must grasp the good side of life ... enjoy life ... enjoy the goodness of being alive ... be good all the time from there, you'll see yourself as the same as others and feel your heart with love and kindness and feed your spirit with the gift of God which is the privilege of being a human alive even in the world with everything turns up side down ... but still with one that will start to see and show goodness to others and self ... time will come that everyone , all of us will be bonded with precious gift of unconditional love and infinite happiness.

God bless us always and forever...

" ang lumang t.v at remote control "

Sa t'wing maaalala ko ung mga pinapanud ko nung bata ako, natatawa na lang ako hindi dahil sa kabaduyan nila, kundi sa fun at excitement na nakuha ko sa kanila...

Alam na alam ko ang oras nila kung kelan ipapalabas, kung anu ang sequence ng mga cartoons sa umaga at sa hapon. kung gaanu katagal ang commercial sa bawat pakita nila sa t.v.

Nandoon na may fantasy, action , comedy, love story, mga cute animals na may super power, mga heroes na may ibat- ibang kulay , may red, blue, green, pink, yellow at black. May mga pagong din na mala-artist ang name , leonardo, michaelangelo, donatelo, raphael at may master silang matandang daga. May mga cute little bears na may cute funny super power from the image na meron sila sa kanilang tiyan at sa huli nun lagi silang nag-slide sa rainbow na may golden pot na punong puno ng coins. May kambal din saging nun. May street na kung san punong puno ng mga puppets from monster na mahilig sa cookies , mayroon ding kulay red dun na super cute kapag kumakanta, may mgkapatid din n opposite ang ugali at thinking, may kasama din silang batang elepante at sexy na pink pig na diva ang dating at may dracula na walang ginawa kundi magbilang ng magbilang from 1- 100 ...

Marami na ding mga action heroes nun ... mga lumilipad, may mga sasakyan na sobrang bilis, mga tight leather leggings and pants, may mga partners din sila, nandun na rin ang mga female counterpart nila at syempre di papahuli ang mga vilians nun maging sa outfit at powers. Ayun nga lang pare-pareho silang medyo mali sa outfit. siguro trend na un nun pa at sa bagay adapted un up to now ng mga action heroes maging ng mga pinoy super heroes ... eheheh '

Time din namin meron ng anime' may science, mga martial arts na maging sa mga computers nun may mga games na sila , at existing pa din naman hanggang ngaun... may mga princess na galing sa moon at kung san san pang planeta. kaya date akala ko lahat ng tao may super powers na o ung shakra na ewan ko kung saan galing un ... basta mag internalize ka lng , super concentrate,meditate , believe at bravery at wella .... aun na lalabas na ung mga powers mo '

hai di nauubos ang ideas ng mga cartoonist nun may daga , pusa, aso , elepante , bibe , isda at kung anu anu pang mga hayop na naiisip mo ... meron nun sa t.v at sure click un .. kasi may mga series at minsan nagkaka-movie pa...

ang saya ng buhay bata ... buhay na buhay ang mga mata at puso sa kasiyahan na makukuha dahil lang sa mga cartoons at mga characters na walang ginawa kundi magpatawa at magbigay ng kasiyahan sa kanila...

At ngaun ... hindi madali makuha un ... sa dami ng kaylangan gawin , simulan at tapusin... hindi mo alam kung anu p ang gagawin ...

saan na ba un t.v at remote namin nun ' kung pwede lang na makita at mapanuoran lng sila ulit at babalik ako sa una ... bakit hindi ... ngaun iiyak ka dahil sa nasaktan ka ng buhay , date iiyak k lng dahil nilipat ang channel sa balita o basketball ng tatay mo ... at kapag binalik n sa cartoons buhay na ulit ang excitement at enjoyment mo sa katawan ...


Kung pwede lng sana diba ' bkit di diba ?