ikaw ang aking mahal ...

Itanong mo sa akin
Kung sino'ng aking mahal
Itanong mo sa akin
Sagot ko'y di magtatagal
Ikaw lang ang aking mahal
Ang pag-ibig mo'y aking kailangan
Pag-ibig na walang hangganan
Ang aking tunay na nararamdaman
Isa lang ang damdamin
Ikaw and aking mahal
Maniwala ka sana
Sa akin ay walang iba
Ikaw lang ang aking mahal
Ang pag-ibig mo'y aking kailangan
Pag-ibig na walang hangganan
Ang aking tunay na nararamdaman
Ang nais ko sana'y inyong malaman
Sa hilaga o sa timog o kanluran
At kahit sa'n pa man
Ang laging isisigaw
Ang nais ko sana'y inyong malaman
Sa hilaga o sa timog o kanluran
At kahit sa'n pa man
Ang laging isisigaw
Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ikaw ang aking mahal...

not a bystander ...

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feel so bad but how can change that ....

no one holds someone's life ...

for what they  feel and see ...

guess no one can even suggest for anyone ... 

life is difficult ...

poor mind , poor soul ... 

like human as difficult to understand ...

thinking , behavior and stand ...

point of view or the way you view around ...

but one thing for sure ... 

not a bystander to treat like one.

Love is in the air ...

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

from the song " The first cut is the deepest " 

 this song makes me smile and i feel this time ... why not give it a try ^^,

unconstructed ...

don't know what'

        sometimes words that came out from your mouth are not what you want to meant ...not that message that you want to convey and receive ... sometimes you  pretend that you can but inside ... you can't even move a little ...  you tend to be strong and tough as a defense of your own sake ... but you know that you are scared to death even say the word or think of the possible scenario ...  jealous of the pain , hurt , love of others ... but not want to try and be on those scenes ... but still missing and wanting to feel it again ... maybe scared and maybe not ready yet ... like jumping into the water from the highest cliff that you imagine ... drowning yourself into the water ... trying to submerge all the badges that you load from the years of pain ... how can't move by the memories of the past ... that actually should be forgotten ... don't want the present ruin everything that are now heading through ...see no start but see the end ... and skip all the stages ... just know the end ... and making boundaries ... how can it be ... if you let these things to happened as a wall and  a defense from all the fears that you see ...why fear ... why not let things go on their way ... why conclude even you have not experience it yet and if that happen just let it happened ...   no more fantasies , no more to unreal ... have to face the reality and fact ... that life should always moving  ... no one can't be left behind unless you let your life to be left behind ... but to those who left behind they put end to their own growth even they just started growing ... making a period to their own story ...  move is the key word ... and try is an  experience ... so why not move and try ... at least once again you feel life ... live , create and experience '

Turning to next page ...

As we leave the pages turning to the next one,  to know what will happen next and to continue what have been started or to start and make a new one  ... we leave the time and chances of the past but carry things that matters to us ... lessons , knowledge ,skills and experiences ... we leave pain , sadness , frustration , hatred , tears ... not leaving the memories but knowing that all those things happened and being part of what the past have ... we leave the places of  where we stood and walked but still can go back if we wanted so and if it is destined to be stand and walk so ... we leave laughter, happiness , excitement , joy and fun ... but we will create a new level on this present time ... we leave the broken pieces of wounded heart ... but still to make it heal and try a new love ...  I believe that this year is an extraordinary year for everyone ... different stories of success, failure , sadness and happiness ... different chapter of learning and experiences ... different adventure and discoveries about oneself and others ... too many different lives of this year that show who we really are and know are potentials to be what we want to be ... I know God will give us this new year , new life ,new beginning ... with His Hands that will keep us on continuing life that His Gift for everyone ... Have blessed new year and a new hope for all of us ... Happy 2012 !!!