NEW PHASE

I am facing new journey , new life , new world but best in hand or may say best in my heart I have loaded of life memories that i know and feel will give me joy, full spirit and lift my soul every time I move my feet forward in this path that I am going. Can't say i am happy but i know this is the best plan He create for me.I feel sad because I am leaving but temporarily after a few times I'll be back to a place where I belong. 


I will miss everything , I will miss every person I love ...  May He lead me with Lights and bless me with His Spirit. I know I can make it through Him. 


May I have a wonderful journey with lots of meaningful memories ' 

ikaw ang aking mahal ...

Itanong mo sa akin
Kung sino'ng aking mahal
Itanong mo sa akin
Sagot ko'y di magtatagal
Ikaw lang ang aking mahal
Ang pag-ibig mo'y aking kailangan
Pag-ibig na walang hangganan
Ang aking tunay na nararamdaman
Isa lang ang damdamin
Ikaw and aking mahal
Maniwala ka sana
Sa akin ay walang iba
Ikaw lang ang aking mahal
Ang pag-ibig mo'y aking kailangan
Pag-ibig na walang hangganan
Ang aking tunay na nararamdaman
Ang nais ko sana'y inyong malaman
Sa hilaga o sa timog o kanluran
At kahit sa'n pa man
Ang laging isisigaw
Ang nais ko sana'y inyong malaman
Sa hilaga o sa timog o kanluran
At kahit sa'n pa man
Ang laging isisigaw
Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ikaw ang aking mahal...
Ikaw ang aking mahal...

not a bystander ...

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feel so bad but how can change that ....

no one holds someone's life ...

for what they  feel and see ...

guess no one can even suggest for anyone ... 

life is difficult ...

poor mind , poor soul ... 

like human as difficult to understand ...

thinking , behavior and stand ...

point of view or the way you view around ...

but one thing for sure ... 

not a bystander to treat like one.

Love is in the air ...

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it come to being lucky he's cursed
When it come to loving me he's the worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

from the song " The first cut is the deepest " 

 this song makes me smile and i feel this time ... why not give it a try ^^,

unconstructed ...

don't know what'

        sometimes words that came out from your mouth are not what you want to meant ...not that message that you want to convey and receive ... sometimes you  pretend that you can but inside ... you can't even move a little ...  you tend to be strong and tough as a defense of your own sake ... but you know that you are scared to death even say the word or think of the possible scenario ...  jealous of the pain , hurt , love of others ... but not want to try and be on those scenes ... but still missing and wanting to feel it again ... maybe scared and maybe not ready yet ... like jumping into the water from the highest cliff that you imagine ... drowning yourself into the water ... trying to submerge all the badges that you load from the years of pain ... how can't move by the memories of the past ... that actually should be forgotten ... don't want the present ruin everything that are now heading through ...see no start but see the end ... and skip all the stages ... just know the end ... and making boundaries ... how can it be ... if you let these things to happened as a wall and  a defense from all the fears that you see ...why fear ... why not let things go on their way ... why conclude even you have not experience it yet and if that happen just let it happened ...   no more fantasies , no more to unreal ... have to face the reality and fact ... that life should always moving  ... no one can't be left behind unless you let your life to be left behind ... but to those who left behind they put end to their own growth even they just started growing ... making a period to their own story ...  move is the key word ... and try is an  experience ... so why not move and try ... at least once again you feel life ... live , create and experience '